tolerate & understanding not ignoring & forgetting

i really want you to come

but 

you seems so busy with your life recently

it's not that i don't mind you can't come

but i'll try to understand

both of us have our own life

i''m giving you space

i don't want to force you

i'm not that type of person

i'm not ignoring

nor forgetting

i'm being tolerate & understanding

i hope you understand

i truly love you sayang

i really do

Lubby N. Alle

kedai mamak was the place where both of us met for the first time

but it was nothing

i smiled at her

she smiled back at me

nothing special
like i said 
it was nothing instead of something

the 2nd time i met her was at Alamanda

me,her & my friend went for karaoke

all of us sang our favourite songs for 1 hour

i still can remember her amazing voice singing If I Ain't Got You by Alicia Keys

but still
it's nothing

nothing at all

once again the same kedai mamak was the place for us to meet for the 3rd time

me, her, Kaka & Govin

after almost 2 hours there, we decided to hangout at KL

on our way to KL i sat beside her at the back of Kaka's car

i text her Digi number (i guess)

she didn't replied but i received 1 text from unknown Maxis number instead
quickly i hit the call button & her phone rang
KANTOI!! haha
she was laughing & smiling at me 
her laugh & smile really caught my attention
really-really caught my attention
she is sooo cute
we keep on texting eventhough we were sitting next to each other
later that night i accompanied her till in front of her sister's apartment
we exchanged smiles & goodnight wishes
since that day on it was something to me...
something instead of nothing


Final World Cup Street Party!!
i really had a great time that night
i still remember every moment of it
cause it was the beginning....
beginning of everything
me, her, Kaka & Ruzain went to the street party
it was crowded like hell!
the street party really caught many people's attention
somehow both of us wearing Grey colour of top
at the beginning she was fine
but later on she was not
she was not feeling well & suffering a headache
i'm the one who look after her 
without she asked me to do so
i hold her hands
both of my hands were around her waist
always near to her
being protective
we danced like we never dance before
it was awesome!!
i'm still happy eventhough Netherlands lost
cause i managed to spend time with her


i spend almost every day with her for the following weeks
im not bored at all
plus it's a bless for me to spend time with her
she's so adorable
her eyes always shining
her hair is soo beatiful
it's really hard for me to resist her smile
the way she smile really caught my attention
how i wish i can spend my whole life just looking at her smile
and her lips is my biggest weakness......
Biggest weakness!
i just love everything about her
EVERYTHING!


it's been 2 months we are together
sometimes even me myself cannot believed that i'm her BF.
i always rate myself 5 out of 10
while she is a 10
PERFECT 10!!
i'm just gonna do my best to be her best BF ever.
im sooo thankful that she's mine.
i'm not afraid to take risk because i know it's gonna be worth it.
i just love you the way you are.
i truly deeply madly in love with you.
till death do us apart.

goodnight!

i just love you the way you are

nite sayang

^_^

tidak sihat

saya tidak sihat.

kepala saya pening2.

loya sepanjang masa.

berkali2 muntah.

haihh.

thanks to LOVE for all the medicine & McD porridge.

im so sorry cause make you worried all the time.

i miss you sayang.

i really do.

all the best for your exam tomorrow.

??

it's my house

not anyone else's house

maybe it doesn't matter for you

it doesn't mean anything to you

but for me it matters

sorry i ruined your sunday

but mine also fucked up.

feel so good smoking in my own room. it's the 2nd time i'm doing it.

it's damn dangerous but it's fuckin worth it.

fuck you

seriously i don't understand why he have to do that.

he said he don't want to disturb other people's relationship.

but then what the FUCK is he doing?

come on laaa bro. grow up. 

just imagine how will you feel if it's happened to you.

it's that simple laaa dude. can't you think? where the FUCK is your brain?

and then no need to text sumtin that is soo FUCKIN stupid.

she's not as stupid as you.

no use for me to be very pissed off pun.

because in the end of the day she still choose me.

so i'm just going to concentrate my love life with her.

i love you Lubby N. Alle!

i really do!!

(^_^)

sorry

i shouldn't that

im so sorry

imy

hope

hope it's not true

hope it's not for real

if not i have to live with it

no other option

i just hope everything will be just fine

Sukmum 2010/2011

yeay!! 

sukmum lagi sekali.

sangap gilaaa kot.
grouping dengan 3rd,4th & Puspita.
agak payah sebenarnya tapi tiada yg mustahil!
come on 2nd!!!

harap2 tahun ni boleh cecah final.

arggghhh! sangat berharap!

sangat teruja dengan role as captain. 

wish me luck guys! 

heee =)

p/s: hope SHE will be watching while i'm playing (^_^)

my #1

she wrote this on my hand.

i love you too sayang!

heeee =') 

boot baru saya!!

  

............

i just love her so much. so much till i don't mind i'm hurt as long as she's not. i don't mind i'm not being myself. i don't mind whatsoFUCKINGever things bugging in my head. i don't mind i lost my family life, my friends life and my own FUCKING life. i just hope she realized how serious i am. how much i cared about her more than anything else. im not going to regret at all but i'm just afraid the same shit happens again. it's not only you who have the insecure feelings but i chose not to put that feelings above everythings. it's unfair if i didn't do so. i'm gonna do as best as i can for us. i hope she will understand why im doing that, why im doing this. there's a reason for things that happened. its not that i don't trust you. it's the pain that i feel inside me. i wish we are just gonna be fine. till death do us apart. ilysm.  

inside of you

Old as Ancient Skies

I've had these wondering eyes

But you took me by suprise when you let me inside of you

Inside of you 

Inside of you 

There's got to be 

Some part of me 

Inside of you 

Inside of you, I could cross this desert plane 

Inside of you, I can hear you scream my name 

Inside of you, while the stars unfold 

I've crossed me heart and I've crossed the world 

And I need you here and I need to be 

Inside of you 

Now the flowers bloom 

I feel you creep into my room 

And if this should be our tune 

I'll die here inside of you 

And the world explodes 

I've never been down this road 

Teach me how to glow 

While I'm moving 

Inside of you 

Inside of you, the restless find their dreams 

Inside of you, this king has found his queen 

Inside of you, all the stars unfold 

I've crossed me heart and I've crossed the world 

And I need you here and I need to be 

Inside of you 

Inside of you 

Bay blue 

So say it's you 

To thoughts untrue 

Who I woo 

It's you I woo 

Through and through 

And through and through 

There's so much more than just a screw 

Inside of you 

And I was blizzard blind 

Felt like I've lost me mind 

But you've treated me so kind 

I don't know what to do.

p/s:i love you syg!

can't wait!

hmmmmmmm! =) 

i hope today is the day.  

seriously i can't wait any longer! 

heeeeee ^_^

terpinga-pinga

i can't sleep last nite. im worried like hell. i dont know what happened actually. i was left out terpinga-pinga. i hate it. i hope i can hear one hell of an explanation. i just wanna think as positive as i can for the moment. 

i miss her

its been almost a week i don't meet her. its fuckin painful! arggghhh. i miss her soo damn much! i miss her eyes. her charming smile. i miss playing with her small nose and cute chin. poking her stomach! i miss the way she hold my hand. i just miss everything about you sayang. seriously i can't wait to see her on wednesday or thursday. really2 hope its wednesday. heeeee =) 


love you sayang! ^_^ 

raya!!!

happy eid everyone!!! heeee =) this is the time utk melantak!! ketupat palas! lemang! rendang! argghhh! tp kena jaga badan sbb lepas cuti raya ni ada SUKMUM! sukan antara kolej! heee. can't wait!! da sangap gilaaa ni nk main! hahaha. 


saya rindu gila dekat dia. saya sayang awak tau. selamat hari raya sayang! =)

^_^

cupcakes made by my LOVE, Lubby =)

my CUTE white purple swatch!! From my LOVE as well!

Thanks baby! I Love You So Much!! 

drooling!!

wahhhhhh!! berdarah mata saya melihat kedua2 jeans diatas!!! sangat2 berharap dapat membelinya sebelum raya ini!!!! huuuuuuu ='(

frustrated

once again im being frustrated by the person whom i trusted the most. Now, it really make sense why people keep on saying that life is always unfair. sometimes i just don't understand why people still wanna do things that obviously will hurt the people that we love the most. maybe that is what we call LIFE. i know its hard to make everyone happy. but at least u can make ur loved ones happy all the time right? there is always an option in life. its BULLSHIT laa if u said "there's no other way". haihh. its just *FUCKIN weird why it is soooo *FUCKIN hard for you but it is sooooo *FUCKIN easy for me to do that. *the F word seriously plays an important role for that line.haha* im done talking. i hope she realized that im FUCKIN serious with this relationship. whatever it is, im still frustrated.

saya mahukan ini gilaaaa babiiiii

saya mahukan ini gilaaa babi!! sudah lama saya mengidamkannyaa! 

saya sangat2 berharap hasil duit raya tahun ini memberangsangkan!

hahahhahha. 

PUMA KING XL SOFT GF. 

kau sabar jap. aku akan membeli kamu suatu hari nanti! hahahaha

im soooo into her!!

My god!!!!! WTF is this dude????? she is FUCKINNN awesomeee! seriouslyy! argghhhh. i cant imagine how am i gonna react if she is in front of me. FOR REAL! argghhhh for sure im gonna JIZZ IN MY PANTS!!!! haahahahhahhhaha. AUBREY O'DAY. owwww. you are a 10. a Hard 10 for god sake. shit! i must stop looking at this picture. this is for my own good. u know what i mean rite? hahhahaha. I LOVE YOU AUBREY!                                                                                    

it hurts

i dont know. sometimes the way she treat me really2 hurts me. but still i tried not to exaggrate things. maybe dia tak sengaja or what. there's always a reason for everything that happened rite? im not saying that im not happy with her. im content with her in my life. but... i dont know. haiihhh. she dont want me to that. i followed whatever she said or asked. whenever i said don't do that, she will say its nothing laaa hubby. plus you are my fucking BF laaa. please treat me nicely. HOW ON EARTH am i going to treat you nicely if you cant ever listen to what i asked you to do. hmmmm. maybe she is still paranoid with things that happened with her previous relationship. still i try to think as positive as i can. all i can say is, i dont mind im hurt as long as she is happy. 

step up 3 is sooooo AWESOME!

last nite me LOVE, amy, kay & betik went to GSC MIDVALLEY for STEP UP 3 and it was fuckin awesome! seriously u guys have to watch it! DOUBLETHUMBSUP!! seriously its worth it! all the dance steps really freakin me out! arghhh! COOL! later we chillin at MURNI SS2. Satu lagi malam yang sangat menarik dalam kamus hidup saya. haha. take care guys! 

i love you more than you know

im in love once again. im still afraid being hurt like before. im not a strong person as i look. im weak inside. very2 weakk. all i can hope is everything will be just fine. i'll try my best not to repeat the same mistake again. i wont yell at my GF anymore. i wont hit my GF anymore. ill try to treat my GF as best as i can. i love you baby. i will put 110% effort is this relationship. I LOVE YOU IZA KHAIRUNNISA KASMIJAN!!

My 20th birthday

im extremely HAPPPYYYY! heeeeeee =) This is the best birthday I have ever had. BIG TIME!! I love all the surprisessss! Thanks to my BELOVED, CUTE & CHARMING girlfriend and my best friend ever GOVIN!!!! seriously u guys had done it well. SUPERBLY. guess what? i got a GOD DAMN CUTE SWATCH from LOVE. Thanks baby!! Thanks to ainul jugak selaku kawan lelaki aku yg pertama wish!!!! terharu wehhhh! haha. I love you guyss! =)