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i just love her so much. so much till i don't mind i'm hurt as long as she's not. i don't mind i'm not being myself. i don't mind whatsoFUCKINGever things bugging in my head. i don't mind i lost my family life, my friends life and my own FUCKING life. i just hope she realized how serious i am. how much i cared about her more than anything else. im not going to regret at all but i'm just afraid the same shit happens again. it's not only you who have the insecure feelings but i chose not to put that feelings above everythings. it's unfair if i didn't do so. i'm gonna do as best as i can for us. i hope she will understand why im doing that, why im doing this. there's a reason for things that happened. its not that i don't trust you. it's the pain that i feel inside me. i wish we are just gonna be fine. till death do us apart. ilysm.